Kimaya Khurana - Week 16 - In the Blink of an Eye
I still remember the first day I set foot on campus to start my junior year.
The anticipation of knowing who was in my classes, what my teachers would be like, and seeing everyone after a long summer.
I can still remember walking and trying to find my classes, seeing my friend’s familiar faces, and us all discussing what our year would be like. From there, it transitioned into spirit week, then Homecoming, then finals, then winter break, and now 2 more weeks until it's almost over.
And before you know it, we'll be seniors.
While it's scary to know that we are about to apply to colleges and start our new lives, it's also strange to realize how quickly everything is changing, especially without us being involved.
The moments that we were counting down to be over, all the times we thought in our heads, “only 10 more minutes till the bell rings,” to staying up to study for a test are now distant memories, and summer is approaching.
Junior year felt like it was never gonna end in the moment, but now it's gone by so fast that I wonder how fast time will fly by till it's time to head to college. And now, all we are going to be doing are our “lasts.”
Our last Homecoming, spirit week, first day of high school, prom, etc.
Even though the future is exciting, I still wish that time could slow down. Although I am excited to see my new life, I don’t want to lose track of my childhood and realize that that phase is gone. I don’t want to transition into being an adult and all of the responsibilities that follow.
When we are young, our biggest worries are mainly tests, what we are doing in school, and small things like that. But soon, life is going to become so much more bigger than that, which brings mixed feelings.
There’s something uncanny about knowing that one day, the things that we are doing right now and seem normal are going to exist only as memories.
It's weird how quickly growing up happens that we don't even notice when something is coming to an end.
We are now at the age where we can drive, plan our futures, and decide what we are going to major in, when 3 years ago this seemed so far away.
Anyways, we still have a year left. While these are going to be our “lasts,” I don’t want to waste time in the present knowing that.
Instead, I’m going to try to enjoy every moment left.
For me, it’s hard to imagine high school ending. But regardless, every year seems to pass by faster. I wonder if I’ll ever get used to it. I can hardly imagine leaving my parents, who I’ve lived with for my entire life, or even leaving California, which for all seventeen years of my existence, I’ve lived in. On one hand, I’m excited to finish high school (finally!) but the idea of it ending also stirs other feelings in me. I’m going to miss not having any responsibility. I’ve found that I’m simultaneously afraid of things changing and staying the same at once.
ReplyDeleteI’m excited to graduate, and to experience every “last” as well—whether it be my last class period or last AP test (which I am really, really, really excited for). In the end, life is a series of firsts and lasts. Worrying about the future or dwelling on the past is what leads to disconnect from the present. Like you, I’m going to try and embrace every joy and struggle of this next year! (:
One of my fears of growing up is doing my taxes. I am a a very forgetful person and I know that eventually I am either going to be in jail or paying a hefty fine for forgetting to do them. The time of paying taxes is coming soon and it's honestly scary.
ReplyDeleteIt feels surreal that we are at the end of our junior years, and for most it's our most challenging. A few of my friends who are seniors are graduating tomorrow and I'm not sure how they feel. They both got into good colleges (Georgia Tech and UCLA) and I wonder if they will look back at their time in high school. Would I be too busy in college and with life? How much different is the real world? All questions that are going to be answered soon.
Thanks for sharing.